10/04/2008

Jackie for Mommy, Winter for Daddy.

(Living Memory Mode)
- Jack, it's snowing. Won't you go to the cemetery?
- Not yet, Sorrow. I haven't written any song for my father.
- Are you going to break your promise only because of that?
- Maybe. I'm letting it go. Or i'm just postponing it for when it's not so cold.


Everytime that snow falls, if we are in town, Jackie Winter goes to the cemetery, sings a song in front of his father's grave and cries next to the tombstone. When we are touring, and he sees the first snowflakes, he goes out of the bus, plants a woodcrafted cross on the dirt and does the same.

The snow makes Jackie remember the day he had the worst fight with his father. Then he went out of the house to do some shopping. He said he would be back in 20 minutes. He returned 4 hours later, frozen and lifeless in a town patrol, escorted by a forensic doctor, a general doctor, two nurses and a cop.

Jackie was told that his father died by getting suffocated in a blizzard, that it was an accident. But his mother, that got insane after that event, told him during a visit to the sanatorium that his father got pushed into a frozen lake in the middle of a fight. The cop confirmed it to her. She never knew who did it, and she never tried to find an answer, because in the middle of that bunch of sedative pills it was not convenient to guard any grudge against any person who couldn't be able to help her out of her insanity.

Jackie has a serious psychological problem after his father's death. Though he fought with his father before seeing him for the last time, he felt guilty for what happened, and his mother tried to persuade him that it was not his fault, without success. The day of the funeral, Jackie Winter cried like never before. His father meant everything for him and he couldn't tell it while he was still alive. In front of his coffin, before being covered with dirt, he made an oath he has always accomplished:

When snow falls, i'll remember you.
Every snowfall, i'll sing a different song for you.
I'll cry in front of your grave until i run out of tears.
And i will always love you.


The oath has been maintained since 5 years ago. It's incredible the amount of songs Jackie Winter has wrote since then. I never ask him to play them with the band, because i'm not capable of desecrating those tributes. And because once the song is played at the graveyard, Jackie Winter disappears every track of it. Every song from Jackie Winter to his father is like one of those dandelion flowers, when it's touched by the wind, it fades away.

2 comentarios:

Rojo dijo...

Good work, keep it up!, BTW why even the comments are in inglés? carajo!

A. C. Sorrow dijo...

Hagale, escribalos en inglés!!!! Yo se que ud puede home!!!!